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This week has gone by so fast...but I know it feels that way because on Monday my guy & I had a huge fight. He really hurt my feelings. This nigga( in Jazlyn & Skylar's voices , you know, the twins from Grown-ish)! I swear love is just pure witchery ( sounds better than witchcraft , right?) & foolery. So the week has mostly been me being pissed, him apologizing & me wondering if I accept that apology too soon it might come off like what he did wasn't serious. Do you guys ever feel that way? I also feel like I can't stay mad for long enough; like in the heat of the moment I am going off on a tirade & stomping off then a short while later I am back to being calm & reasonable. I honestly do not think I give myself enough time to acknowledge my hurt but rather I immediately start working on the way forward. I have this innate need to just fix things even when I shouldn't be.I might need to see someone about it because I am curious why I am like that.
Incidentally, I am not completely friendless. I have a solid friend that I can always rely on to call me out on my crap, to give me sound advice ( like being petty isn't as good for a long term relationship as it is made out to be) & to buy me burgers. & he doesn't judge me when he asks me out & I tell him how broke I am. We may not talk daily or even weekly but when I need him he never lets me down.
Oh also I applied for a certain job on Tuesday but I was informed that I should not get my hopes high because they already have someone in mind & that the advert was just a formality. I feel like with most jobs it is the same & it most definitely sucks!
Book Review: Book seven, CD Reiss' Rough Edge is about a married couple who happen to be doctors & ex - military. Caden, the husband, has a form of PTSD makes him feel like he doesn't deserve Greyson, the wife. When he's really in the thick of it he emotionally withdraws from her & there's a lot of BDSM grade sex taking place. Personally, sometimes it was too much for me. Now book eight is something beautiful.Corinne Michael's Consolation is about Natalie, an ex - army wife learning to live & love again after she loses her husband Austin to an IED attack while she is heavily pregnant. She grapples with questions like how soon is too soon & how can you love another man without feeling like you're forgetting what you shared with your dead soulmate.
