Take a minute

Darling, i defended on Wednesday & passed! This really is the year of manifestation for me. The panel wasn't brutal & even my supervisor was chill. God has really been faithful to me. In one short month everything has fallen into place for me. I literally have no words. Next step is to make the corrections i received then forward my work to the external examiners which isn't a hustle compared to the internal defense.
State of mind:I was passing by the sitting room earlier in the month when I heard Joyce Meyer's sermon where she talked about how just because God has asked you to let something go, it does not mean that it will be easy. In addition, lately I have been seeing this post on Instagram that the intensity  of the pain of letting something go is not dependent on whether the thing was healthy or not. So it is normal to miss  something that is toxic  but it will pass. There's an episode on Grey's Anatomy where the baby's heart stops to beat after Maggie removes a huge mass but she  articulates that the heart just needs a minute to learn how to beat without the load. Sure enough, it does beat again. Moral of the story: it will pass.
At the same time, i feel relief & excitement. Relief because deep down i knew I was settling & excited because I can't wait to see what God has in store for me. Also feeling easy yet giddy about being single. I love the words "nope, it's just me".
 Isn't it impressive how many feelings we can feel simultaneously? Some even contradicting. The works of God never cease to amaze me. Something else that I find amazing is the things people observe about our relationships that we are seemingly blind to. Today a friend of mine echoed my mum's feelings about my ex. She even told me that she used to pray God to remove him from my life if he wasn't the one for me. I prayed the same prayer for so long. Thank heaven for girlfriends like her.
Currently alternating between re-watching seasons 1 of Game of Thrones & Crossing Lines.