the modern day fairy tale

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Darling,
I honestly think that the most tragic thing in life is growing up. For me, growing up has completely changed how i perceive people and relationships. You grow up & realize that your childhood heroes are thoroughly flawed. That they are just making it all up as they go. You grow up & realize that while in relationships you ought to be partners equally yoked, it rarely is the case. It becomes as clear as day that one party compromises more . So here i am, always expecting too much or  so I am constantly told by the women in my life, already tired at 25. I often joke & tell them that I wish that someone would take my life, figure things out & then give it back to me all neat & wrapped in a beautiful big pink bow. I realize that I treat relationships , & life, as sprints not marathons. So I get all riled up with passion only to quickly burn out when things don't go my way. I still foolishly believe in being completely honest in relationships but I am told (by the women in my life) that there actually is such a thing as too much honesty. They urge me to keep some things & parts of myself to myself. To have some mystery. To have something that is just mine so that I don't lose myself completely in my relationships (as I very often do). I recently read something online that you cannot always expect your partner to be your BFF so maybe these women in my life are onto something.
Therefore, while I may be unsure about my expectations when it comes to relationships, I am certain that listening to how I feel and respecting these feelings will help me maneuver this foggy patch. I am certain that while there may not be a prince charming (with a beautiful castle)  on a strong white horse charging to rescue me, I can save myself. Even if it is messy & slow, I will save myself & give myself the happy ending I deserve.