Darling, so it turns out that the guy would actually stay gone which is not entirely a bad thing since i have since found out that he has a bit of a murky past & his reputation with women is suspect. A colleague actually told me that his dirty laundry was aired on Kilimani Mums a couple of years back but I (& my cousins) found no evidence of it online. All in all, good riddance because I would probably have gotten my heart broken all over again. But if I am being honest, it is a little bruised.There is also something else that i quite do not know how to feel about. It is another guy. A married guy who has a crush on me & it makes me nervous because I am not that kind of girl. I hope it gets resolved soon .
Enough about men.I am reading The Wait Devotional because I need the strength, encouragement & reaffirmation. I need a constant reminder that waiting really does work & that it can be done. Today's devo challenged me to be honest about why i am actually choosing to wait & here is what i put down:
- God has called me to do so
- To have a clear mind when making decisions about guys
- It weeds out the f* boys (& they are many)
- It is my way of submitting to God the most important decision about my future
Am I 100% confident about my ability to do it? Nope. But I am 100% willing to submit to God & let His will be done in my life because I know & I know & i know that where He leads He will sustain.
