ALIGNMENT

Darling,

Today my heart is light. I am excited about the day & what it will bring.Two interesting things took place yesterday: one, finally the manufacturers of my phone decided to bring back the option to change the system font ! Yaay!! What’s more is that there is a variety of fonts to choose from. Secondly, my ex happened. I got two alerts from a joint account we had & it just knocked the wind right out of me .All the memories we made came flooding back & before long I was drowning. So I reached out to find out if he had made a query or a transaction on the account & before long it was just like old times. Teasing & laughing. If I am being honest, it felt good. Like home.

Yesterday it scared me ; feeling like that. Seeing the past in rose colored glasses. I had to intentionally remind myself of the pain & insecurity. Because it was there, lots of it. & how the break up felt like coming up for air. Something else that stuck out during the catch up was that sex was on the table. We were always so good at it & to be honest, I considered it, but I am not about that life now. Also, it was one of the reasons why letting go was so heart - wrenching for me.Am I going to get chemistry like that with anyone else?

 However,I really do want to do relationships as God intended & see what happens if I hang in there. So today morning I made a decision, I am going to chase God’s heart above all else & let go of anything & everyone that does not align with that.
Pray for me love.