maroon couch
Nobody tells you how lonely living alone is. Those you love go on with their routines & now it is up to you to fill up your time. Because you have so much alone time. Regardless, there's no where else I would rather be than on my couch binging on Grey's Anatomy & slipping in & out of loneliness.
So I texted a guy to come over. Totally platonic. He didn't come. Another guy texted me asking me to come over to talk to me ( I think he likes me) & I said no because I am not ready to be liked in a romantic way. I am unwilling to be beholden to a guy romantically at the moment. I am not ready & I am going to really take my time until I feel ready. I am giving myself permission to take a time out. I will not let my biological clock hurry me. I will be ready when I am.
Incidentally, I am going to move out after my graduation this month. This apartment is gorgeous but it has way too much moisture. My maize & wheat flours ( is that correct?) both grew moulds . Even my eggs (lol ) feel moist. I am paranoid that I might get food poisoning living in this house. I have already identified the apartment I am going to move into. I will have my very own balcony which I am excited about. All I am trying to do is to be happy 😉
