curve-balls

My love, for the last couple of months it feels like there's a curve-ball with each turn. First things first, while i was ready for love, turns out the guy was out here spreading his love on everyone who cared to have him. Met 2 nice guys after him but one is too short while the other one i don't know if he quite gets me. He says I give off the vibe that I don't want to get married & if i am being really honest, lately most days I feel like that.
Fast forward to today where a good number of guys were let go. Good workers who have been with the firm for years were let go due to 'redundancy'.My friends, people with families to support, guys whose lives were just starting to take shape. Sitting in angst, wondering if i was next on the chopping board made me take a hard look at how i save & my plan B. I need to do better so that if i am ever on the chopping block, i will not start from zero. Right now, while i can, i need to lay a foundation for myself.