exploring confirmed singlehood

   

Hi love,

So I have been having conflicting feelings about things. & by things I mean relationships lol. So thing is, the older I get the more I think that marriage might not be for me. Then I begin to wonder if maybe the only reason I think that is because I have not met anyone I would want to spend the rest of my days with. Then I tell myself to calm down because I do not have to settle down now. Maybe not in the next 5 years. Maybe in my 50s. But I like to think that when I am ready I will know. Then children, do I want those? I am not sure either. All I know is that now at 27 I really enjoy going home to an empty house. I enjoy cooking in my panties & bingeing on shows on Netflix. Sometimes simultaneously.

  I feel like there is a wave urging guys to cut down on screen time but that’s all I want to do after a long day. I love losing myself in good fiction. Rebel for kicks. Capital FM’s playing that song (don’t know if it’s the name of the song because I have never heard it before) & I love the phrase.

You would figure that given all these feelings, I would not be stressing over guys but I still am. Albeit in a pretty low-key manner. The guy I am currently ‘with’ embodies this Oscar Wilde phrase “I represent to you all the sins you never had the courage to commit.” I think the first part of the phrase “You will always be fond of me” also applies simply because he is that kind of person.

Incidentally, I have just recently began listening to the Inappropriate Questions podcast. Good stuff. I wish there would be an African version of the same because here boundaries are mythical creatures that fart sparkles.